A Somatic Reclamation™: the 6 week journey for the woman remembering herself

My own Somatic Reclamation™:

I experienced a great and traumatic loss as a very young girl. Immediately after the loss came a complete and utter crumbling of everything I’d ever known about life and about myself.

I was placed in an abusive household, separated from everyone I’d known and loved. I was just 9 years old.

As a result my little body shut down to protect me, I fell deep into the fawn response, and I disassociated entirely from my body, turning numb to joy, to pain, to everything. I didn’t know it at the time but I was experiencing Complex PTSD, and I have been ever since…

It followed me into my friendships all through high school where I became a chameleon, taking on the personality I knew others would like to belong to the group, it followed me into relationships with boyfriends where I was hyper-vigilant to any sign of change in his energy towards me, constantly scanning for danger signs that he would leave – in both examples so terrified of being abandoned I learned to have no boundaries and became the person I thought they wanted me to be. Complex-PTSD followed me into the workplace where I was walked all over because I didn’t know my needs let alone advocate for them. I suffered with chronic self-doubt, and total self-erasure.

I had no idea who I was.

The first time I felt my body was at 19 years old – a decade later – in my first yoga class at a gym. And with that began the thawing process.

I began to work with my body and my breath, rather than against them. I trained in the same modalities that were helping me to deepen my understanding of what was happening in my body, and I followed the thread deep into the world of somatics and body-based healing.

I would not be the woman I am today — capable, resilient, grounded in my strength yet soft in my presence — if it hadn’t first been for the rupture of trauma, and then the slow, sacred rebuild and remembrance through somatics.

I’m here sharing this work now because I know first hand the power of it, the deep, life-changing, soul-affirming, transformations this work can lead to are nothing like any other kind of mindset-coaching or talk-therapy can even come close to. 

So trust that I know the terrain well, I revisit often with the help of my own somatic therapist. I invest in trainings to support and deepen my own embodiment of this work as well as my understanding so that I can really truly hold every nervous system that I come into contact with through this work.

I see this journey very much as a return, a remembering.

And my only wish for you is that you choose to make this return yourself. To find your own sacred ways home.

You, your body, your voice, your true authentic Self, and every Part of you very much deserves that.